Believing something so amazing

We hear the words, so difficult to take in, and our eyes scan quickly over the page.  Yes, there.  The black type on this white paper background needs to dig deep into this hard heart.   This, Father, Your love, let it be something I can more readily receive.

I thirst.

I thirst for you.

Mother Teresa shares the words that Jesus poured into her, words that I long to believe — and I do — but, Father, we both know I don’t live in that truth fully.  We both know I struggle to receive this, push back from the posture of surrender, this heart of mine that forgets it longs for nothing but You.

She writes it down, these words You say,

‘I thirst for you.  Open to me, come to me, thirst for me, give me your life — and I will prove to you how important you are to my heart.’

And You continue,

‘No matter how far you may wander, no matter how often you forget me, no matter how many crosses you may bear in this life, there is one thing I want you to remember always, one thing that will never change:  I thirst for you — just as you are.  You don’t need to change to believe in my love, for it will be your belief in my love that wil change you.  You forget me, and yet I am seeking you every moment of the day — standing at the door of your heart, and knocking.’ (“I Thirst for You,” Bread and Wine).

And I hear this, in this group of women you bring together, and I vow to stop just trying to believe this more.  With the support of this community, Your girls, I will end the dance of thinking You are something I must seek, chase after, capture and take as my own.  Don’t I do that sometimes, Father, take what You give and try to shape it into something of my own?

Do you do this sometimes, too?  Can you imagine that there is nothing you need to do, or change about yourself, to be loved like this?  Father, give us faith to believe this more.  Thank You for Your grace, Your thirst.  Your thirst for us, Your girls.  

Girls, shall we believe this, together?  May I join in this, this amazing reality, with you?

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